Jessica Robinson

if you ask me saints go to hell / too / probably all the time


you don’t have to be a saint to perform Miracles. the scientist publishing reports about weird changes in monarch butterfly migration disappeared a couple weeks ago and since then we’ve been picking wings up off the ground and tossing them in the air and then feeling a little sick afterwards. a girl on campus might have been caught kissing a tree. i used to think i was a compass. i used to think that north was up and the sky was a Place and someday i’d be old enough to get There. i used to have nightmares about northern winds taking me on a field trip before i was ready. / my friend’s mom once told me that believing in fairy tales was the easiest way to end up in hell. all of my imaginary friends used to live There. i think most of them have moved to florida since then and they live in terra cotta houses with fake grass lawns and they yell for somebody to bring them a drink even though they don’t drink and they live alone and i think once they sent me an email about it. you don’t have to be a saint to perform Miracles but you probably have to be a crier and it probably has to be a weekday and you probably can’t love too many people. Miracle makers can’t have too many friends. and it doesn’t really matter if they’re real. the people who promise to visit you in hell if you end up there always leave a contact number that is no longer in service. you don’t have to be a saint to return a voicemail. there were butterfly wings on the window sill this morning but the wind probably got to them first. i’m starting to write this stuff down. you don’t have to be saint to feel nauseous when you catch a girl on campus murdering a butterfly. if you ask me hell is mostly filled with Good people. the Bad ones usually get to go to heaven on account of the way they never pretended to be somebody else / on account of the way they never even tried.


Jessica Robinson is a young Canadian writer based in “The City Above Toronto,” who spends her time watching people and trying to do them justice on paper. She has had poetry published with Soliloquies, Belleville Park Pages, and Room Magazine, among others. You can find her on Twitter @hey_jeska.